So satisfying

Yesterday my twin sister had her baby. As a surprise (for both me and her) my friend B came in to visit. I have known B for almost 9 years...and we have been messing around with each other for 8 of those 9. He has been married for 5 of those years and his wife and I are good friends. In August they moved to Texas which was completely devistating, both because I was so far from two of my best friends but it also brought my play time with B to a screeching hault. Well he came up to see my sister's new baby and visit the rest of us. Needless to say I was thrilled to see him and spent the next 4 or 5 hours trying to keep my hands off him while we sat in the hospital room with my sis. Finally I found an excuse to go out to the parking garage to get something from my car and he volunteered to go with since it was 2 am and they were worried about me walking alone.
We managed somehow to get outside and then we were all over each other. I drug him to the parking lot, pushed him down on the backseat of my truck and went to work on him. We kissed and caressed each other until we were panting then I slide down and went to work on my favorite part of him. After about 10 min of that he put me on my knees with my hands on the door and proceeded to fuck my so hard I almost ripped the door arm rest off. It was incredible. God I miss him so much. I just have to be near him and I am soaking wet. I love it when my body responds so immediately to someone. I love it even more when that someone is around more often for me to play with.
It was incredibly satsifying to have him back, even if it was just for a day. I will miss him all the more when he leaves for TX...but he is on the rocks with his wife, so maybe he will be back sooner than I expect!

Frustrating

I want someone I can't have. Not because he doesn't want me back, or because I am with someone else (I am but that's not the point), its strictly because of distance. He lives in California which presents a challenge in completing the intense physical need that we both have for each other. No one has ever gotten me as hot and bothered as he does, and it drives me absolutely crazy that I can't have him. I have never had this issue before. If I want something or someone I get it, one way or another. But no matter what I do my plans to have him are always spoiled. Either he can't get time off work to come here like he planned, or when he is here my guy won’t leave me alone long enough. Just thinking about him completely distracts me from everything else I should be doing. My sexual frustration with this man is reaching levels hither to unknown by me. I wonder if I will want him this badly once I have had him. Granted I am going to need a full week to live out all of the fantasies and desires I have for him, but once that is over will I still feel that pull when he calls or texts me? Anyone else ever had this situation with someone? The want for them is all consuming, but does that want last after you have had them?
I am texting him now and I can barely keep my mind on work. Good thing I keep toys in the car for just such an emergency!

Confessions

I have a confession to make. Not because I feel guilty, or because I think talking about it will wipe it away...no its because I just like talking about it lol. I have the best lover (at least for me) of all time. And he doesn't belong to me. I have known B for 8 years, and we have been lovers for almost 6 years. When we started messing around he was single (dating but no one exclusive) and I was in a very serious relationship...engaged serious. I was 19 at the time and he was 32. Every time he looked at me I could tell he was undressing me and I have never been so turned on my just eye contact. We had great phone sex, but we would also spend 2 or 3 hours on the phone just talking. I was a shoulder to cry on through several of his break-ups and he was there for me when I called off my engagement. I was his "best man" when he finally decided to take the plung and get married. He now has a beautiful daughter, and is still married, and I still love to screw his brains out. The thing I like most is that nothing is off limits with him. Everything goes, even the exhibistionist stuff like sucking his cock in a packed movie theater. Part of me thinks that I should feel bad that I am fooling around with a married man. The other part of me shrugs at the idea and says that we are too good together and technically he was mine first. He just recently moved to another state which was a little traumatizing for both of us, but the leaving sex was amazing, and the phone sex is still the best. He will be making a trip back up here soon and I can't wait for the phone call to let me know he is in town. Just thinking about it gets me all hot and bothered.
Most people will probably think worse of me because of this, but I really couldn't care less, its my life and I will continue to do what makes me happy!

Stupid People

Today is one of those days when stupid people really annoy me. Normally I tolerate this intrusion on my intellectual prowess fairly well. I reserve judgment until their stupidity is proven beyond a shadow of a doubt before I start to ridicule them mercilessly inside my head. Today is not one of those days. Unfortunately the people I work with have had to take the brunt of this zero-stupidity tolerance day. A grand irritation was a conference call I was on this morning. I was trying to resolve an issue with a partner design company regarding one of the assets he had just passed off to us. After trying to explain to him what the problem was 4 different times and he still didn't understand I was forced to send him 10 different screen shots of exactly where I was seeing issues with his work. Suddenly after 45 minutes of tedious explanation the light bulb suddenly flared on in his mind and he figured out the problem. Luckily my boss hit the mute button on the phone before I could get the "this guy is a F*#&ing idiot!!" completely out. I have mixed feelings about that. Sometimes people just need to be told how idiotic they are being, if no one ever says anything then they will just assume that they are doing a fantastic job and keep on with business as usual. I have a firm belief that hiding your irritation with some one's lack of adequate intelligence is doing them a great injustice. Especially on days like today when the dense genes are flooding people's minds and slowing them down to a snail pace. Yup today is a zero tolerance day.

Really Girls?

I am probably one of the rarest females on earth. I don't say this because I have some weird physical deformity, or because I make more money than that average woman. No I say this because I really and truly don't care for oral sex...well that's not true, I am just not particularly fond of recieving it. Lets be honest here...it doens't feel that great, and really after about 2 or 3 minutes of that I get very bored. Now most women will say that my feelings toward that particular form of foreplay are simply because it has never been done right. Well let me assure you that is not the case. It has been done right, by a couple of different guys...and one chick but that is another story entirely, and I was still bored. However, this particular aversion to oral does not extend the other way. I absolutely love felacio. Its one of my favorite things to do.
So now my question to all of you girls is why? Why do you enjoy that, and why do you force guys to do it when they clearly aren't interested in it at all. Is it the feeling of being catered to? Or is the the notion that they are totally focused on you and getting nothing for themselves in return? That also brings up another issue that I have often questioned. Girls, why do you insist that your man give you oral, but then refuse to do the same for him? You may not like it, but one good turn deserves another in my book.
I bring this up because I finally had to have that conversation with the boyfriend last night. He, for reasons unbeknownst to me, really enjoys giving girls oral. So far I have been a good sport and let him when he asks for it. However, last night I just couldn't give it the level of attention that he obviously was, and that didn't seem fair so I stopped him. Immediately he was offended and hurt (who knew). I had to spend a good 20 minutes reassuring him that it wasn't that I wasn't attracted to him, and that of course I love the sex...I just really get bored with oral...well at least oral being done to me. He finally seemed to get the message and I am hoping we wont have to deal with the issue again, but it makes me curious if more guys feel that way. Or if more girls feel the way I do...

You've Got Mail

Meg Ryan had a line in the movie where she said that she likes to start her emails like she is already in the middle of a conversation. I think that is an appropriate way to begin any sort of generalized writing. Also begin like someone has just joined you in the middle of a conversation, it keeps people interested in learing more.
I have read innumerable blogs where the author (always anonymous) has ended up recieving a much celebrated book deal, thrusting them from anon status straight into the limelight. I'm pretty sure this isn't going to end up as one of those blogs. So for those of you who were wondering if one day you would get to find out who I am, you are probably wrong. Sorry (not really but it sounded like a good thing to say).
I will probably write here often, and mostly it will be about things that you probably wont care about, but maybe can relate to. If not, maybe you will enjoy reading it anyway. Either way I am really not here to please you, I write to please me, and everything else be damned.
With that said...welcome!